IpraytoGodmysoultokeep

I'm wondering what to say. You know what? what. I'm going to lay here and listen for You to say something. Anything. Is it the ringing in my ears not allowing me to hear? Is it the storm of fragmented thoughts in my head that keep me from listening? Please calm my mind. Please turn down the noise? Are you in the black matter between the pulses of thought. Or is it just me there too? Are we there together in Spirit? The thoughts that just come, are you sending them or are they the fruit if our interaction? Is there something else? Is there evil? An evil being? Or is that which I seek to define an absence of Thee? Is hate merely the absence of love? Is duality the framework of an infinite reality? Is it really that simple? Good and evil, black and white, with Thee or without. Is morality two dimensional and we as humans are placed in the middle and given the freedom to choose this way or that? I've been thinking a lot about the middle ground as a wasteland. Barren. Free to ch

why have I fallen so hard again? Why must I be in such pain? My body aches with new pains and fires the old familiar soar mess. Give me strength to continue to move through the physical pain of my body and not dwell on the things I can no longer do. Help me run again. To sprint. To regain my ability and desire to train, heal and rehabilitate myself. Help me heal my body, mind and Spirit. Is my Spirit Thy Spirit? My Soul is it me? Mind, body, Spirit are they the trinity of my Soul? You as the Father, Son and Holy Gohst as the one true God and separate beings at the same time are truly a holy  mystery. My desire to understand pales to my need to know Thou art with me. I feel Thy presence. My spirit my gohst feel Thy Love. My mind seeks to understand. My body is prodigal and lost. Please help me welcome it home. Loved by my Soul, but foresaken by my mind. In my depression my mind and body fall. Help me stand. Help me think clearly. Grant me focus. Grant me strength. That my mind and body

Thank You. So grateful to have You here with me. The Love we share in this family is You.

Is this it? This doom and dread that has overcome me. Is it real? Is it just fear of the unknown? Or do I know? Please let me be wrong. For their sake please let it pass. Be with me now and when I wake. Give me simple steps to take. Be my sleep. Be my rest. Thou art all I need. Indeed. I believe. with Thy help tomorrow I Will face. In Thy Will bestow Thy Grace.grant Thy Love and pardon me.dhow me what I need to see. Make me who I’m meant to be.Amen.

OK. I'm all in with this TikTok project. So grateful for this blog. So grateful for the book. Reading it out loud to You is making a difference in my mornings. Thank You. Today was really special. That comedian's bit really moved me. The message is what I needed to hear. Thou art the reason. Thou art great. Thou art Love. Help me know a Thy Will. Send me signs. Grant me restful sleep. Soften my heart. Sharpen my mind. Bless me with strength, wisdom and courage. Help me feel Thy presence. Help me know Thou art with me. Help me dream. Heal my shoulder. Calm me. Grant me confidence. I pray that I may be worthy of Thy love. I pray that I may be able to share Thy love. Now I lay me down to sleep. I pray to Thee my Soul to keep. I pray to Thee with love so deep. I pray Thee make my life complete. I pray to Thee in Jesus' name. Cleanse my heart of guilt and shame. Amen.

What has happened to me? Am I loosing my mind? This pain in my head. This ringing in my ears. Familiar yet new. Please tell me what to do. Listening for Thee. Trying to see. Wondering why. Trying to try. Not sure last night was what I was hoping for. Do I have to publish these prayers for them to be answered? I’m kidding and have faith You know this, but last night, up multiple times, suffocation from apnea and asthma and stress. Grateful for waking up alive each time. Grateful for what little sleep I did get. Please bless me with restful sleep tonight. Please let me breathe. Fill my lungs with Thy breath, help me loose some weight. Help me feel good about myself. Is reading my prayers on TikTok a good idea? Let me know if I should stop. Please send me signs to know Thy Will. Help me be productive at work. Help me be a better dad and husband. Help me be happy. In Jesus’ name I pray. Amen.

Thank You for this weekend. Thank You for letting me play. So grateful for my wonderful life. So grateful for my beautiful wife. Grateful for my daughters. Grateful for my dogs. Humbled by Thy Love for me. Humbled by all I see. Please grant me strength, courage and wisdom to face the uncertainty ahead. Grant me patience and peace of mind. Grant me restful sleep tonight. Help me know Thy Will. Help me be calm and still. Help me forgive. Help me live a good life. Help me love my wife. Please send me signs to know Thy Way. Send me dreams to clear my mind. Bless me with clear thinking. Help me be articulate. Help me make a difference. Help me find my voice. Help me find the time. Give me ideas. Help me make them real. Be with me. In Jesus’ name. Amen.

When I pray to Thee I see. What my life can truly be. A song I sing inside my heart. No end in mind I do just start. I start to hum a melody. Discovering You here with me. Brings the light for which I see. Music in my very Soul. Makes it real and makes me whole. It fills the gaps it fills the hole. It gives me hope to begin again. To live for more than just myself. Belief in Thee. Thy Love my wealth. Faith in Thee is my health. No need to know what next will happen. Here right now is what matters. A better tomorrow is vanity. This moment is eternity. Love is here with me. Everything will be. As it should be. As I am I will always be. I am that I am I see. I praise Thee. I Love Thee. I see. Me. Amen.

Give me words that I can say. To change my life and change my way. Give me the the steps to take. To make a difference for Thy sake. What’s the next right thing to do. To find the path straight home to You. Help me find a way today. To handle all that comes my way. Thank you for these rhymes I write. Align my thoughts and make it right. There is nothing wrong with me. Because Thy Love is here with me. Now I now that it is true. I now know what I must do. Embrace in me what is unique. Use my heart and mind mind to think. Trust my feelings let them blink. Know who I am and that alone. To guide my Spirit safely home. You are my God this much is true. Thank You for what I must do. I asked for it and here we are. A new idea that I embrace. Humble and worthy I take a Thy Grace. Amen.

I know not what to say. With You here, now, today I am at a loss. Ever so blessed, ever so grateful, ever faithful, but what is this feeling that has come over me. Is it detachment? Is it fear. Dread of what is near. Is this the calm before the storm? Or is it already here? So blessed and highly favored. So at home and yet so all alone. Thou placed this notion in my head. Now I contemplate it in my bed. So far from sleep and understanding I pray to Thee to help me sleep. I ask of Thee my Soul to keep. My mind afire and body sore please give me strength to close the door. To walk away and start anew. To know the things that I must do. Confidence onto the end. Thy presence near. Thy Love Thee send onto the end. Please here me Father and Holy Ghost. In Jesus’ name I love Thee both. ThenTrinity is real for me. I see on earth Thy Will be done. Thy presence near as it is in Heaven. Right here I see Thy nearness to me. That is all I’ll ever need. To be the man I’m meant to be. Thank You for b